Overwhelmed

So Channing and I say often, like seriously all.the.time. that we like to keep things real.

We let our real weirdness shine through in lovely videos.

We confess to our judgmental ways, and we try very hard to be mamas that you can relate to. We  try to do this so we can feel like friends and not just strangers on the world wide web.

Which is what I am coming to you now as…

As your friend.

I am just gonna lay it out there friends,  I am currently overwhelmed.

In fact I am not even sure that overwhelmed is a big enough word for what I am feeling. I am just too lazy and drained to look up anything else.

There are so many things I could ramble on about as to what exactly I am struggling with, but I won’t put you through all that. So for you nosey rosies here is the readers digest version…

PA School

Money

Megan struggling

Madisyn struggling

Will struggling

Michelle struggling

Liam is sick

Jack is two

PA School

Money

and so on.

A lot of things going on right now in the Tanner house. We are doing a lot of things, but really we aren’t doing any of them well. And  it is starting to catch up with us. And I just really felt like I needed to process {because the tears were no longer working}, which of course for me means write it out. Which of course brings us to now….

Sometimes though it is hard to be real and vulnerable in the online world. To open up and share what you are struggling with. Opening up, can mean opening yourself up to judgements.

Just the other day I saw a mama who is going through some hard things express her frustration at other moms who complained because they should be grateful they weren’t in her shoes. It made me so sad for that mama that she was struggling and going through that pain. But it also made me sad that she totally missed the point. The fact that she is going through a trial doesn’t take away from somebody elses. No two peoples struggles will look the same and the fact of the matter is that there is always going to be someone out there with a “bigger” struggle. And honestly who are we to say if someones struggle is big or small?

In the grand scheme of things, my struggles are probably small. But that doesn’t make them any less real to me and my family at the moment. Yes there are families out there with “bigger” problems, but it doesn’t take away from ours.

In moments where we as mamas open ourselves up and share a piece of our heart and our struggle, we generally aren’t looking for a fix. Most of the times we aren’t even looking for sympathy.

What we are looking for are FRIENDS.

Friends and most importantly, PRAYERS.

And I am fortunate to have those friends. Friends that will lift me up and cover me in prayer.

Weather my struggles are “big” or “small”.

While I was on the verge of my breakdown today, a lovely friend, who is also my boss, shared this with me, and I in turn wanted to share it with you. Maybe you are struggling today. Maybe you have been struggling for awhile. Or maybe you know a friend that is currently having a rough go at things. This is a great reminder that we are never in this alone.

May we all remember that we are all mamas doing the best we can. Some days we do it better than others, and we all have struggles that maybe not every mom knows first hand, but certainly we can all relate in some way and offer our friendship and prayers for those of us in need.